moii` life

2009-03-06T22:53:00.003+08:00

A little girl with her daddy.

Every morning, her daddy would bring her to the kindergarten.

On the way there, they would pass by a playground.

Without fail, the little girl would pester her daddy to push her on the swing.

Up in the air, over the trees, towering people and vehicles...

She would feel happy.

A sense of security,

knowing that her daddy will be there for her

no matter how high or low she goes.

Years passed, the swing is gone.

So is her daddy.

But she holds on to the belief,

that one day, she and her daddy will reunite.

And they will be playing on the swing like before.

2009-03-04T23:50:00.002+08:00

It has been a long, long time since I last blogged.

It seems like I've lost the drive and interest in blogging.

I don't know when my next post will be.

Maybe tomorrow, maybe few months later, or maybe there will never be one.

But one thing I have to say for sure,

I am currently leading a happy life.

I guess that's what matters most.

Till then.

2009-01-02T09:39:00.002+08:00

I spent the last moments of 2008 with dear and his family at a Countdown Party in a club house. It was fun except for the Indian dinner which was provided. I'm sure Karen would love it if she was there. LOL!

2008 has been a year filled with excitement and happening events. Heex.

In May 2008, I met dear for the very first time. It has been, and will always be, an exciting and amazing journey with him. Then, I got to know his group of friends who are ever so humorous and nice.

In June, I went for a church retreat to Malacca with Karen and some other people. It was really refreshing and I really enjoyed myself in Malacca.

In August, I started my second year in school and I got to know many nice friends in my social work classes. They were the ones who made lectures fun and enjoyable.

In December, my dream came true! Andy Lau Wonderful World Concert was truly a blast and I have never been so excited and touched at a concert before. Hehe... And going to the concert with dear simply made the night even more memorable.

I hope 2009 would be another memorable year for me. I'm sure it would be. :)

2008-12-01T20:55:00.003+08:00

December is here! So many things to look forward to! :))

1. ANDY LAU WONDERFUL WORLD CONCERT! ^^
2. Seoul Garden with Dear
3. Karen's birthday celebration
4. Shopping
5. Straighten my hair
6. Movies
7. Bring my brother out to play

I hope to spend as much quality time with dear as possible. Hee... I guess it'll be our last holiday cuz he'll be working full-time next year after he graduates. :)

My last paper on Wednesday! =]

2008-11-29T22:38:00.002+08:00

Went to attend a wake just now.

And it got me thinking about life, death, spirituality, religion...

I guess as we grow older, we see more of deaths and sicknesses.

Although I do not support euthanasia,

I have often wondered whether my stand will change when it comes to me being the one plagued with the illness.

I do hope to die with dignity and painless-ness.

Death shouldn't be a scary thing isn't it?

But I'm scared.

Perhaps it's because I have been out in the secular world for too long.

Religion is a lifelong commitment.

I want to walk down the future with God's comforting embrace.

I know He is always there.

It's time for me to start attending church again.

** Sorry for the morbid entry. Wow... I saw my lecturer being featured on The Straits TImes today for her work with HIV patients at the CDC in TTSH. She's really a great Medical Social Worker! Someday I hope to be like her.

Going back to my books now. Till then.

2008-11-28T19:40:00.003+08:00

Will be having my placement from 11th May to 17th July 2009. There goes my holidays. Sigh! Hopefully it will be a meaningful and enriching experience for me. I guess I will be able to know whether social work is really the career that I want only after going through the placement. But then again, even if I get to know that social work is not for me, it will be too late to make any amendments. =X

Somehow, I still miss Psychology.

Exams will be ending next Wednesday and it will be holidays! Will have to start finding out what modules to take for next Semester. I feel like taking another Singapore Studies Module. LOL!

ANDY'S CONCERT IN 2 WEEKS' TIME! :))

2008-11-24T00:20:00.001+08:00

Ahh! I want to watch! But the tickets are so expensive. Sigh!

:(

2008-11-22T23:49:00.000+08:00

Happy 6th month :)

2008-11-16T22:27:00.002+08:00

We listen to songs everyday.

Some tunes ring in our ears for hours, repeating themselves almost endlessly.

Some tunes become lost to the external environment.

At every phase of my life,

there will be some songs which are significant in that period.

When different familiar tunes are played,

memories of different phases of my life will appear.

Happy memories, sad memories...

Feelings of nostalgia accompanying those memories.

In the soon future to come,

more tunes will be included into my memory bank,

adding more colours and richness into my life.

Today,

what is the song playing in your heart?

2008-11-16T01:41:00.002+08:00

Exams are coming! I'm worried and stressed! Really do hope I manage to get decent grades this semester. :(

So many movies that I want to watch! But I guess I have to wait patiently till after my exams.

1. BODY OF LIES!
2. Four Christmases
3. City of Ember
4. Quarantine
5. Bolt

I want exams to be over!

2008-11-09T23:59:00.000+08:00

It's been nearly two years since you are gone. The grief has gradually faded away as time passes. Tears no longer appear that much whenever I speak of you. And I've finally managed to tell myself that you are never ever coming back again.

Sometimes it scares me, because I can hardly recall how you look like without looking at your photos. I want to let go and move on, but I'm afraid of losing memories of you in the process.

But, don't worry about me. Because after all these years, I've grown stronger.

I know you're watching over me somewhere up there with God and His angels. And I'm consoled by this fact.

And I'm patiently waiting for the day we meet again.

I wish you were here to share my joy and happiness with me now that I've found someone whom I really love.

I miss you, Daddy. I honestly do.

2008-10-20T23:37:00.002+08:00

It has been ages since I last blogged seriously.

Guess I have been too caught up with my life to spend some time thinking and reflecting...

Today I think back about how we first met.

Just a simple message on Friendster from you, a few minutes of conversation on MSN...

And our paths crossed.

I still remember the very first time I saw you in person.

I didn't know that a new chapter of my life will begin right from that very day.

You brought wonderful memories into my life.

Happy moments which have been imprinted so deeply into my mind.

My world is colourful, because you are in it.

Thank you for everything that you have done.

From the very first time you held my hands, I knew my life is going to change.

It has indeed changed.

I don't know what the future has in store for me but, I know that I want you to be in my future.

I want to walk the journey of life with you.

And only you.

I love you.

Happy 5th month in advance dear.

:)

2008-10-15T16:48:00.001+08:00

I have been feeling so blessed and happy for the past few months.

I hope we last forever.

:)

2008-09-27T21:57:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Andy! :):)

2008-09-23T22:46:00.003+08:00

Tiring day today!

Went to school for project meeting. Had lunch with Weihao and Eugene at Engine Mac while waiting for the rest to come. We went to the Family Room for our discussion and it was quite fun exploring how SecondLife works. The meeting ended really late at 6pm... Had to rush down to Cathay for another project meeting which was supposed to start at 7pm. I shouldn't have rushed all the way there man, because I was the earliest one to reach in the end. Dots.. The rest came like half an hour later. Haha... Next time I'm going to take my own sweet time! Lol! Anyway, the meeting ended at around 9.30pm and I went back home half-dead. Sian...

Shall not talk about depressing school matters... Haha... Went to watch Mama Mia yesterday and I really love it! Oh man! Meryl Streep is great as usual! Haha... But Pierce Brosnan looked weird singing and dancing in the movie. LOL! I'm going to watch it again! Really nice! Hehe :D

Really fabulous show! :))

Got to go sleep now... KK and IMH visit tomorrow! Sounds exciting... Heh... That's why I love Social Work! So many field trips! :D

I miss dear :(

2008-09-18T10:48:00.002+08:00

Have been feeling very stressed lately. My readings and tutorials are piling up and projects are driving me crazy. Worst still, I have 2 term papers to write! It's mid term break next week but my weekdays are all filled up with school matters. :(

Monday
My only free day, have to mug for SW2103 Mid-term exam!

Tuesday
- SW2105 project meeting 1pm in school
- Medical Social Work project meeting 7pm, Cathay Starbucks

Wednesday
- KK Hospital visit 9.30am
- IMH visit 2.30pm

Thursday
- SW2105 Skills lab 2.30pm-9pm

Friday
- SW2105 Skills lab 9.30am-6pm

This semester is really tough... :( :(

Anyway, our 4th month is coming next Monday! But dear will be in camp because of his reservist. Can't wait for him to book out next Friday and eat steamboat together! :) :)

Dear, when the going gets tough, it's you who gives me the strength to carry on. Because of you, I am no longer lonely. Thank you for all that you've done. Saying I love you seems to be a little too insufficient to express how I feel for you. Our future will be beautiful, this I believe. :)

谢谢你的爱 <3

2008-09-14T22:38:00.002+08:00

I drove today! From my house to the restaurant near my house. Hehe... But was so embarrassed because I forgot how to park the car and my uncle had to help me do the parking instead. Oops... Hahaha =P

Have been watching <溏心風暴之家好月圓> at dear's house. It's really exciting even though some of the parts can be quite tiring to watch because they're always screaming and shouting. Have to wait till dear comes back from reservist before I can watch again. Heex :)

I'm terribly nervous about this Wednesday's mid term because it's a history exam. I'm poor at remembering dates! 2 more days to chiong for it... Jia You! Hehe :)

Will be pinning for him the next 5 days... Sigh! Saturday, please come quickly... :(

2008-09-09T10:43:00.002+08:00

Played basketball with dear, Karen, Da Ge, Kenneth and some of their friends last Sunday at Toh Guan. Quite fun and exciting... But I ended up with muscle aches all over. LOL! Karen left earlier and I stayed back to watch them play. Then went to IMM for dinner at Xing Wang. Walked all the way from IMM to Clementi with dear. Hee... I love walking. Badminton next time! :)

Had our first project meeting for SW2105 yesterday. We're going to use Second Life to do our project. I didn't even know what's Second Life until yesterday leh. I seriously hate using IT to work. =X

Another 1 and a half year, and I am graduating. I guess I'm probably not opting for Honors year because I seriously doubt my ability to get at least a Second Upper Class. So, I'm not going to risk wasting one whole year. Heh... Am I cowardy? Oops :P
Anyway, I'm rather excited about going to work. It sounds intimidating but I'm sure I'll learn a lot being a social worker. And I really do hope to go on a holiday to somewhere far when I graduate. It's been like 8 years since I last sat on a plane. Dots... Have to start saving now! LOL!

Nation-Building Mid term test 1 next Wednesday 6-8pm! OMG! I'm more or less halfway there for my revision but I'm still scared. I seriously want to do well for this semester. Have to mug hard every night till next Wed. Heex :)

Dear's going for reservist next week. Sigh... Will miss him terribly :(

2008-08-31T23:32:00.002+08:00

Been happy the past few days because I've spent lots of time with dear at his house. Intended to study with him but I ended up watching tv or sleeping sometimes. Heh... Was watching 杨贵妃 yesterday with his family and it's nice, even though I don't really like period dramas. Heex =D

I am really lagging behind in my revision. Oh no! Am glad that I completed one chapter of the Nation-building module yesterday night. The readings are really horrible although they're quite entertaining because of the political issues. LOL!

Tons of revision to do:

1. Finish readings for Nation Building Lecture 3
2. Finish readings for Medical Social Work Lectures 1-3
3. Prepare Medical Social Work tutorial
4. Watch [I Not Stupid] for Generalist Social Work tutorial

There're a lot more man! But I know myself lar, can't possibly finish so much in a week so I'm aiming to complete all these which are more urgent. Heh...

Stressed... Am certainly looking forward for the Mid-term break to recharge and catch up! :((

Anyway, some happy things to look forward to:

1. Cut hair and treatment with dear
2. Change new specs (the optician said my eyesight has increased by 100 degrees! Will I go blind if I hit 1000? =X)
3. Hospital visit to KK!
4. Malacca/Genting with dear in Dec!

And most exciting of all.....

ANDY's Concert! :D :D :D :D

P.S: Life is fragile. Sigh!

2008-08-28T22:50:00.002+08:00

DATE
12 Dec 2008 Fri, 8:00PM

DURATION
Approx. 2 hrs

VENUE
Singapore Indoor Stadium

TICKET PRICE (Exclude Booking Fee)
Standard - S$198, S$178, S$158, S$118

LATEST NEWS
Internet Booking starts on 28 Aug 2008, 9am.
Other Sales channel start on 28 Aug 2008, 10am.

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Dear has booked the premium tickets for both of us! I'm so happy! Hehehe! My dream is coming true very soon! Can't wait to go Malacca with him this Dec too!

Got to work hard in the meantime so I can play and enjoy my Dec holidays to the max! =D

2008-08-27T00:31:00.002+08:00

Tutorials have started this week. I had my first tutorial yesterday and it was rather interesting. We learnt about the various emotions and underlying emotions. Cool! Hehe... Dear came to campus to accompany me for my 2-hour break. So happy and touched! :)

Went to his house after my lecture and slacked around. Had dinner at his aunt's house at Pasir Panjang. Baby Dylan is really cute! I want to play with him but apparently, he is scared of me. Haha! After dinner, dear, his mum and I went to Clementi to have Tang Yuan. Love the yam paste! :D Accompanied his mum to do grocery shopping before going home.

A simple day well-spent. :)

2008-08-23T12:02:00.003+08:00

22/08/08 - Friday

Happy 3 months! :)

Was supposed to meet dear at town after my lectures yesterday. But happened to bump into Karen so went with her to print some notes. And I left my wallet at the com centre! I only realised it when we reached the Forum to buy hotdogs. LOL! Thanks to Karen for helping me find back my wallet! :D

Bus-ed down to town to meet dear. Walked around before going to Coffeebean to slack. Heex... I'm really falling in love with Mocha Latte. It's really nice :D

Our plan was to go to Glass House for dinner but it was raining so heavily and we ended up in dear's house watching TV. Hehe... It was still fun nevertheless. Ate dinner at his house and his mum is really nice! :)

3 months, and counting...

P.S: Most expensive tickets for Andy Lau's Wonderful World concert is 201 bucks! I must start saving 2 bucks a day from now on! So very excited ah!!! :D

2008-08-18T23:46:00.002+08:00

Again, another person commented in lecture today that I look like an ang-moh pai. No wonder she kept speaking to me in English when I always hear her talking to others in Chinese. LOL! I think I have to start telling others right from the start that I'm a 100% cheena-pai! Dots... Hahaha :P

Had dinner with dear, Da Ge and Peng Soon at Holland V just now. They were discussing about their future and it suddenly dawned on me that I'm going to enter the workforce very soon. Sigh! I better cherish my remaining few years in campus as a student.

It's only the second week of school and I am already feeling the stress. There are much more readings to do this semester man! And I'm lagging behind already. Have to buck up! :( :(

At least I have dear's support. Am happy :)

2008-08-18T10:37:00.002+08:00

Went to dear's house yesterday afternoon. Kenneth was there to study too. Haha... Went for dinner with dear, his mum, his sis, his bro+gf and Kenneth. Enjoyed myself =)

Da Ge sent me this song few days ago and I really love it! The lyrics is so sweet and cute! Go listen k! :D

Never be replaced

Baby I love you and I'll never let you go.
But if I have to,
boy I think that you should know,
all the love we made can never be erased.
And I promise you that you will never be replaced.

I love you,
Yes I do,
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
Until the end of time.
From the day I met you,
I knew we'd be together
and now I know I wanna be with you forever.
I wanna marry you and I wanna have your kids,
thinking never compared to the feeling of your kisses

I could say I'm truly happy till this day,
You make me think I better live my life everyday.
There's never been a doubt in my mind,
that I regret ever having you by my side.

Ok, got to bathe and get ready for today's lecture! :) :)

2008-08-15T23:12:00.003+08:00

GUESS WHAT?!

ANDY LAU is coming to Singapore for his Wonderful World concert! AHH!!!

12.12.2008

Singapore Indoor Stadium

I can't believe that I can really see him in person soon! It's so exciting! Oh my goodness! Awww!

My dream is coming true.

I can have sweet and nice dreams tonight.

Hee :) :) :)

2008-08-13T08:49:00.003+08:00

So school has started. Lectures have been rather smooth-going still. Thank God for interesting lecturers and friendly lecture mates. Heex :):)But my timetable for this semester really sucks. End my day at 4pm on every single school day. Dots... I prefer those 10-12noon lecture slots. =X

Went with dear to the salon at IMM after my lecture. He trimmed his hair while I did my treatment. I love the texture of my hair now. Hehe :) Kenneth and Da Ge came after that and we ate at Cafe Cartel. Their standard really dropped eh... Used to love it but now it really isn't nice at all. Still love their Peach Tea though. Heh :)

I miss holidays so much. I miss those days where I can just slack around at dear's house with nothing to do. I miss those days where I can meet him for breakfast when he doesn't have school. I miss watching TV at his house. :( :(

But, I'll work hard at school because I want to build a future with him. :)

真愛是永不死.

2008-08-10T22:44:00.002+08:00

Have not blogged for a long time. Heex... My life has been really exciting and fun! I am happy! :)

My birthday.
Coffeebean and PizzaHut.
Essential Brew and 2am Desert Bar.
Steamboat at Crystal Jade.
East Coast Park cycling.
Old Town White Coffee.
Pool at JEC.
Pasta mania with cell group.

Had so many activities the past few days. Brought my 3-month vacation to a happy closure. Hehe :D

Oh ya, and I have a god brother now! Hahaha :P

He's a pro in playing pool. LOL!

School's starting tomorrow. Am praying hard that I will find friendly lecture mates for those modules that I'm taking alone.

Must work hard for this semester and pull up my CAP! Am glad that I have dear by my side. (:

2008-07-31T22:47:00.002+08:00

Happy day :)

Had breakfast with dear at the coffeeshop near his house. Then went to his house to watch TV while he did his report. Had a really late lunch over at Thai Express and the curry was really delicious wor! I ordered Soft Shell Crab rice! But I still prefer the ones at Sushi Tei. Heh! I'm really turning into a pig man! Slept away almost half my day while dear was busy working on his project. LOL! After he finished his report, we went to Clementi to eat Tang Yuan. I've never been a fan of Tang Yuan but I must say it's really good! Heex...

Enjoyed myself today but it's sad that holidays are ending. Sigh! :(

Must make full use of the remaining week to play and enjoy! I'm having an exciting week ahead wor... Hehe :D

Monday - Brother's 5th birthday.
Tuesday - Dinner with the gals.
Wednesday - My Birthday! Will be celebrating with dear! :) :)
Thursday - Watch DVDs with WenXiu!
Friday - Bro's school's open house

*** Nobody has contacted me yet to buy my TBs. I desperately want to sell them so I'll have money to buy books for next Sem. Sigh! It's really money no enough in today's context. :( :(

2008-07-29T09:06:00.005+08:00

Karimun Mission Trip

Mabel and Steven gave Karen and I a lift to Harborfront from Clementi. It was so early man! I had to wake up at 4.30am to prepare everything. Had breakfast at Harborfront before boarding the ferry. I think there were about 15 other people going with us. Haha...

After 90 minutes of ferry ride, we reached our destination! :)

The queue at the customs was so long man! The wait was quite frustrating ah... Hmph...

Anyway, the Karimun people drove us to the church after that. Their vans were so cute eh... Small and nice :)

In the van~ Heex :D

After praying at the church, we went to the Muslim slum.Took quite a lot of photos.

Steven was telling me that this was only seen in Singapore during the 70s. It was used like a pulley to carry loads up to a higher level. Hmmm...

Had a meaningful time over at Karimun. The children there are so different from those back here in Singapore. I realised how fortunate I was to be able to live comfortably here.

Definitely won't hesitate to go back to Karimun again some time soon.

:) :)

2008-07-26T23:47:00.004+08:00

I'm back from Karimun! It has been a wonderful and meaningful day. Will post up the photos when I'm not feeling lazy. Haha!

Anyway, reached Singapore at around 7.30pm. Was surprised to see dear, Kenneth and Keeyu at Harborfront waiting for me. Hehe :) Went to eat at Food Republic and the Bak Kut Teh was rather nice! Or maybe I was just too hungry lar. Haha... Then they were still hungry and we bus-ed down to Clementi to eat at the hawker. I'm growing fat! :(

OMG! School is starting and I have no idea when I'm supposed to start bidding. Oops! But I was allocated 4 social work modules for next semester. Bidding is going to be so much easier this time. Haha... I only have to bid for 1 module. Shiok! :P

SW 2105 - Relationship Skills and Social Work (Mon 2pm - 4pm)
SW3207 - Social Work in Medical Settings ( Fri 10am - 12noon)
SW2103 - Social Group and Community Work Practice ( Fri 12noon - 2pm)
SW2101 - Working with Individuals and families (Wed 2pm - 4pm)

I think I have a high chance of having a 4-day week! YAY! My tutorials better not fall on my off-day. Hmm...

## Can't wait to go KBox with dear tomorrow! Cherishing every single moment spent with him.

(:

2008-07-25T12:04:00.002+08:00

Sigh...

Feeling a bit emo now.

It always happens when it rains....

Sometimes I wonder whether it was all a dream.

Because it felt too good to be true.

I must admit it's not easy a road to walk,

with all the disapprovals from the people whom I respected and liked.

But, I know my heart.

I love him dearly.

And it's all that matters isn't it?

No matter what may happen in the future,

at least I can look back without any regrets.

After all,

the greatest lesson ever learnt, is to love and be loved in return. - Moulin Rouge

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Argh! I am so very tempted to buy that Andrea Bocelli Concert DVD! But it is not cheap and I seriously need to curb my spending because I'm a jobless person now.

:( :( :(

And I just realised my birthday is coming. I'm going to be 20 in 2 weeks' time. Awww! Wish I could stay 16 forever. Haha!

My birthday wishlist?

Nothing. Hee. Just being able to spend my first birthday with dear is sufficient.

:)

2008-07-22T09:20:00.007+08:00

-Happy 2 months-

It's amazing how our paths crossed each other 2 months ago.

Because of him....

we met each other...

Setbacks and obstacles we may face, but I'm sure we can fight them all. It has been an amazing 2 months and I am looking forward to many, many more moments together.

I never really knew how it was like to love someone so deeply, until I met you.

I want to grow old with you.

(:

2008-07-21T08:54:00.002+08:00

Went to town with dear after church yesterday. Slacked around for many hours before his mum, sis and bro came. His twin brother and him really looked quite similar! LOL! Then waited with them while they bought a massage thingy for their mum. Had dinner at Ding Tai Fung and it was really nice! Heex.. Enjoyed myself tremendously :)

Esther and Georgia have withdrawn from the mission trip this Saturday. Now it's only Karen and I together with the others whom I've never even met before. Somehow, I feel quite nervous and worried. Sigh!

Anyway, I'm getting quite frustrated lately. Argh! Must be pre-school blues. Hahaha! I really hate bidding for modules and balloting for time-table. I do hope I can have a 4-day week for next semester!

Shall end here. Been living an exciting and happy life recently but I don't really have much motivation to blog. LOL! Ciao!

2008-07-19T14:49:00.003+08:00

Met up with Theresa last Thursday at Jurong Point. Woah... I can still remember how full I was! We had Chicago Cheesecake and drinks from Coffeebean. Finally I satisfied my craving for Pina Colada! Hehe :D

The sweet and cooling Pina Colada! :)

Only remembered to take a photo after I had half of it. It was really heavenly! Ahhh :)

=)

Parted with Theresa and went to Redhill to meet Esther and Keng Soon for dinner before our class in church. Heex... Keng Soon is so generous to give me a pair of movie voucher. Anyway, class in church was interesting and enriching! Pastor David Yeo is really a humorous and interesting teacher. Haha! :)

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Met up with dear yesterday at PS. Walked over to Grand Cathay and bought tickets for The Dark Knight. Esther and Wyatt came to watch too! Haha... The movie was rather long eh, but nice! :) Had stingray for dinner... My favourite!

Then went to dear's house to watch TV. Been watching a lot of 溏心风暴 at his place recently. Nice! Love Alfred, but he died in the end... So saddening! :(

Grace is happy! :)

2008-07-17T00:49:00.002+08:00

Had dinner with dear and his 3 brothers, plus karen and xian hui. We ate at the coffeeshop near Holland Village. Quite nice and cheap! Hehe... Then went to YaKun for teh-bing. Oh man.. I really need to stop drinking teh-bing. It's so unhealthy and fattening BUT really nice! Heh :P

Few things that I ~~hope to~~ must do before school starts! LOL!

1. Tidy up my room; especially that super messy study table.
2. Borrow a good book to read.
3. Meet up with cynthia.
4. Dinner with pastor bee.
5. Bring my brother out to play.

And I really do hope I can go for a short holiday with dear. =)

Next tuesday, 22nd July, will be our 2nd month together le. Hopefully we'll have many, many more 22nd's to celebrate together. =)

2008-07-14T22:26:00.005+08:00

Went to Sentosa with the cell group! :)

Really enjoyed myself over there. Thanks to Esther for preparing the food, and Wyatt for driving us! Hehe =)

So many things to eat... Heex

Nice sea view :)

I realised I have the most number of photos taken with this woman. Haha :P

I tried Tiger Beer for the first time. Haha! Didn't like it leh... Ordered Margarita and I didn't like it either. =X

Wyatt drove us to Geylang for dinner and the claypot rice is really nice! Wah... Am really getting fatter nowadays. LOL!

Had a fun time with the cell and am so glad that dear went along.

Anyway, was sick today, didn't go to work. Slept my day through and it was really shiok. Hahaha! Got a pleasant surprise from dear too. Really thank God for allowing our paths to cross. :)

I really want to grow old with him... ^_^

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Have many things to do!

- Go for hair treatment

- Trim eyebrow

- Borrow some books to prepare for school

- Clear up my room

- Buy present for my brother's birthday

School is starting in 3 weeks' time! Feeling a bit dreadful but at the same time, am quite excited about it too. Hahaha :)

2008-07-10T09:24:00.002+08:00

Just finished doing the Module Preference Exercise. I chose 3 Social Work modules for next semester.

SW2101 - Working with individuals and families
SW2105 - Relationship skills and Social Work
SW3207 - Social Work in medical settings

Sounds fun! :)

Have to think of another 2 modules. Argh! School is really starting soon. I'm really going to miss the past few months of slacking and relaxing :( :(

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Yay! The 15th is coming and that means my pay is arriving! Hahaha! Though I don't think the amount will be a lot, I'm still excited about getting my hard-earned money. I've not shopped for ages man! So many things that I want to buy! :P

1. New pair of jeans
2. Clothes! My wardrobe is really depleting. LOL!
3. Shoes
4. Air Supply concert DVD
5. Belt
6. Birthday gift for dear's mum

On top of all these, I need to set aside some money to buy textbooks for next semester. Hopefully I'll be able to sell my used textbooks at a good price. Oh man... I guess I'll have to work as much as I can for the remaining holidays to earn more money.

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Okie, going to bathe now and meeting dear later! :) :) :)

2008-07-08T23:59:00.002+08:00

Been very busy. Working for 4 days this week plus 2 days of training over the weekend. I think I'll dream about coffee and cakes every night man!

And my manager was teaching me how to operate the Expresso and Brew machine this morning. I scalded my poor fingers don't-know-how-many times lor! And steaming the milk is real scary, with the bubbling sound and super hot vapour. Anyway, had a pleasant surprise when dear came to find me. Hehe! So happy to see him :P

I do hope I'll survive this week because I'm already feeling the toil on my body. Hahaha!

Module Preference Exercise is starting this week too and I've not even decided what modules I want to take for next Semester. School is starting so soon. Argh!

Till then.

2008-07-03T23:28:00.003+08:00

1st day of work today! Quite a smooth day except that...

I served the wrong food to the customers twice,

I accidentally burnt myself while pouring the hot water,

I nearly broke the plates while washing them,

I forgot to collect the number tag from the customers twice,

I tripped and almost fell down many times,

and I got scolded!

Hahaha... What an eventful day at work. =P

Anyway, look at what I had for lunch!

Spicy Tuna Pasta! :):)

Quite costly eh but I had it for free! Wahahaha! I'm going to try every single dish at Coffeebean! Now I can't wait to work! LOL! BUT, I'm really going to get fat in no time with all the pasta and drinks. Heh!

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Attended Pastor David Yeo's LIVING FREE class at G1 just now with Karen. It was really interesting and enriching. I can feel God speaking to me when the pastor was talking about a particular issue. I have been running away yet God has been very patient with me. I can somehow sense that He is waiting for me to surrender everything to Him and be obedient. It's really hard....

And it will hurt a lot.

But I believe God has His reasons.

2008-07-02T22:28:00.002+08:00

Have started my training at Coffeebean already! Had the orientation yesterday and it was really interesting. Learnt a lot about Coffeebean and Tea Leaf. The trainer made drinks for us wor! So good! Hahaha!

Anyway, had my Ice Blended class today and I made Belgian Chocolate on my own! Nice eh! Hehe...But the amount of information we have to learn is rather overwhelming ah! Haha... I'm looking forward for the gourmet and Expresso classes to start!

Starting work tomorrow from 10am to 6pm tomorrow! Feeling a bit nervous but excited! Hope I can have a fruitful time at work ya. Heex.. ^_^

I made this by myself! Hahaha :P

Come visit me if any of you are free! Hehe! I'm working at Guthrie House at Bukit Timah 5th Ave! :D

2008-07-01T09:39:00.003+08:00

Today is 1st July 2008.

I'll be starting work at Coffeebean soon and it's really something that I'm looking forward to. Some may think that I'm silly to give up my tuition job to a low-paying yet demanding work at Coffeebean but I think the experience that I'll gain is priceless. We only live once, and since God opened this door of opportunity for me, I hope I'll learn as much as I can.

School is starting in a month's time and the whole cycle of printing notes, finding references, rushing term papers, chiong-ing exams will return. As much as I hate the stressful life in campus, I really am grateful for the privilege to be able to study what I love. I know my future job will never be a high-paying one and that I'll never earn enough to afford a car or other branded goods but at least I hope I'll be able to touch lives in my area of work. That will be more rewarding and satisfying than any other material goods.

I used to think that I am a rather unfortunate person but looking at my life now, I really do thank God for bringing me this far.

I am truly happy now.

Thank you God, for showing your presence to me.

There's also someone whom I'd like to thank. My life has changed tremendously because of him...

I'll be there for you. Always. ^_^

If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If the bright lights blinds your eyes, my love will get you home.
If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever feel ashamed, my love will get you home.
When there's only you to blame, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home,
Boy, my love will get you home.

Moulin Rouge is really nice (I know I'm slow. Haha)! Bought the DVD few days back and watched it together with dear yesterday. Really touching!
The greatest thing you'll ever learn, is just to love and be loved in return.
(:

Shall stop here for now. Hopefully I'll have fun at the orientation later! :)

2008-06-27T09:33:00.002+08:00

Been having some struggles within me.

I don't know what's the right thing to do,

but I can somehow feel a sense of peace and serenity reigning in me.

I know that God is in control

and with Him,

I fear no more.

O Lord my God, I called to you for help and you healed me. - Psalm 30:2

I will never forget that wonderful encounter with God at the retreat. Even as I recall what happened, I feel so overwhelmed with emotions. Really praise God! :)

It is God who arms me with strength, and makes my way perfect. - 2 Samuel 22:33

2008-06-25T23:43:00.002+08:00

Been going out with dear Andrew the past few days! :)

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
Want to vanish inside your kiss
Everyday I love you more and more
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time

Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you
And there's no mountain too high no river too wide
Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather and stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time

Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day

2008-06-23T00:20:00.002+08:00

Just came back! Tiring day today but I had fun! :)

Went to church in the morning as usual and Pastor Calvin was the speaker. His message was about "Dumping your bagguges", which I found it very useful and impactful. Reminded me so much about the messages that Pastor Irvin spoke about during the Retreat.

After lunch, Peter drove us to Labrador Park! It's been ages since I last went there. Still remember the bad fall that I had one year ago when I went there with the Lakeside kids. Aww... Awful embarrassment man! Imagine falling down infront of so many children. Not once, but twice some more! =X

Anyway, the prayer walk over there was quite a solemn one eh. We walked around the park and climbed the hill and prayed for God's blessings to shower upon the July community day. Quite an experience walking with the people who went - Karen, Esther, Pastor Bee, Ian and his sister, Madeleine, Peter, and this couple whose names I forgot. Enjoyed myself! ^_^

Photos ~~

Beautiful scenery :)

Nice view at the top of the hill ~

:D

The toilets are surprisingly clean!

Don't know what this woman is doing. LOL! :P

After the walk, I went to CityHall to meet dear Andrew! It's our first month anniversary! I'm amazed at how fast time passes. Hehe :) Went to Marina Square to eat Pizza before going for a stroll over at the Singapore River.

Grace is happy!

Not forgetting to thank God for all the grace and mercy He has showered upon me all this while. Praise God! :)

2008-06-21T15:02:00.002+08:00

Went out to meet Andrew yesterday at town. Took 154 to Clementi before changing to 106. It's faster to go to Orchard by bus! And most importantly, I can sit all the way there! Hahaha! Met up with his brothers again and we watched this ZOHAN movie which I thought was rather stupid. Waste of money and time! Dots... Kungfu Panda was so much better! LOL! The movie ended at 9.30pm and we had dinner at PastaMania. Andrew sent me back home after that! Feel so loved! :) :)

By the way, I bought another 2 Andy Lau concert DVDs yesterday too at HMV! Hehe! So happy!

Been spending so much money on transport, food and movies. Argh... My bank account is depleting at a horrifying rate. Oh my goodness! Have to start saving man!

On a random note, I'm so in love with teh-ping now. Hehe :D

Will start orientation at CoffeeBean on 1st July! Can't wait! =)

2008-06-20T11:25:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is Air Supply's concert at the Max Pavillion! But I can't go! I'm so sad lar :( :(

Been listening to their songs all day long for the past few days. The more I listen, the more tempted I am to call Sistic and book the tickets. AHHHHHH! :( :(

2008-06-19T17:31:00.002+08:00

This Sunday will mark the 1st month of dear Andrew and me! I hope we'll have many, many more months and years to come....

I really can't wait to go to Genting for Andy Lau concert with him this year end! And our cruise trip! :)

愛你一萬年 :) :)

2008-06-18T23:04:00.004+08:00

Had a great night out with dear again! He sms-ed me in the afternoon telling me that he's coming down to Jurong Point to dine with me! Wanted to eat at Fish & Co but ended up in Crystal Jade. Hahaha... Then decided to catch Kungfu Panda since it was still quite early. Took 154 back with him and I'm home now! Heex :) :)

Can't wait to meet him again this Friday! Meeting his group of brothers again for movie and dinner! :D :D

I thank God so much for all the blessings and mercy that He has showered on me. Praise God!

Grace is a happy girl! ^_^

P.S: AHHHHHH! Dear's friend went to Hong Kong recently for Andy World Club Anniversary Party and Andy hinted that he is coming to Singapore this year end for his concert! OH MY GOODNESS! I feel like fainting already. My dream is nearing and I can hardly believe it! Awwww! Can't wait to watch it with dear! :-P

2008-06-18T00:00:00.001+08:00

Just came back from Orchard. Met up with Andrew at HMV first before meeting his group of brothers for dinner. Ate at Wisma and the milk tea there was really nice! I like! Had a really fun night out with dear and his friends. =)

Can't wait for his Insurance course to end next week. Then we can watch ANDY LAU's Wonderful World Concert DVD together at his place! :) :) :)

It's been a long time since I felt so loved. Hee :) :) :)

Dear God,
You said we should not be yoked together with unbelievers.
What should I do?
Am I sinning against You?
Please give me the wisdom.
I really need it.

2008-06-17T11:11:00.002+08:00

Just came back from the polyclinic. Went to take my Thypoid Injection. Was really frightened at first because the nurse told me it will hurt. Oh man! Thank goodness the pain wasn't that severe. Hahaha... Anyway, have to go out to the coffeebean branch at 5th Avenue to pass my certificate and other documents to the store manager now. Hope things go on smoothly and I'll be able to start work soon! :)

Am reading this book called "Good Morning, Holy Spirit" by Benny Hinns. It's really a nice book! Thanks to Peter for lending me! I know more about the Holy Spirit now... Heex :D

Can't wait to meet Andrew for dinner later! <3

2008-06-16T17:43:00.002+08:00

I'm really experiencing God's grace and mercy in my life. Just as I thought all was over, God did a miracle and now I'm feeling so happy and light-hearted.

I realised I didn't share how God touched me during the retreat. Heex! God spoke to me through Pastor Irvin Rutherfold during the altar call last Thursday night. I went up to the altar call and Pastor Irvin came to me, gave me a hug, and told me that God has healed me and that He loves me! The feeling is so amazing I don't even know how to describe it in words. God knew my worries and He answered my prayers!

Special thanks to Pastor Bee for going with me to the doctor just now and thank you so much for not giving up on me. I really thank God for you :)

I can't wait to be baptized now!

Really praise God so much! :D

2008-06-16T09:14:00.005+08:00

Happened to come across this video just now. It was so touching! A man sacrificed his own son so as to save many others. Almost teared while watching.

Go watch!

The Bridge

2008-06-14T18:49:00.006+08:00

I'm back from GRACE RETREAT 2008! I had an amazing time at Malacca with the church the past 5 days and I totally enjoyed myself tremendously! God is truly awesome! Remembered that I went there with a heavy heart but I came back joyfully and happily!

Took many photos of cuz. Heex... Shall post up some :)

Went to G1 at Tanglin by train. Our heavy luaggages. Haha...

At G1. My name! Haha :P

Pringles on the bus... Heh

We reached Malacca at 3pm. KahSheng, Karen and I went to Mahkota to shop after checking in. His room is just beside us! So coincidental! Haha :P

Woah, I see my husband everywhere... <3

ANDOX! There're so many of them in Malacca! I bought 2! Heex...

At the hotel :)

Some beautiful scenery in Malacca.

Busy streets early in the morning! Taken from our room's balcony! Nice view sia! Haha...

Our room! :)

This is Bukit St Paul if I didn't remember wrongly. Had a really tiring experience climbing it. Peter is really fit man!

This guy at the top of the hill sells nice personalized souvenirs! We bought necklaces from him. Really nice! :)

LOL!

KahSheng, me and Karen :D

Iris! My new friend from the retreat!

Alice! Another new friend!

The room-mate who loves nothing but sleep. Hahaha :P

Us again :)

I ate a lot during my stay at Malacca man! The food is really nice! I love the chicken rice balls especially!

I really thank God for this wonderful retreat! The services in the morning and night were really enriching and Pastor Irvin Rutherford is seriously a powerful speaker! God touched me tremendously and I totally submit myself to Him. I want to shine for God!

Really thank God for the wonderful time! :)

Anyway, met Andrew yesterday night straight after I reached Singapore! Heex :)

未来的路，我们一起走... <3

Busy week ahead! :)

Monday - Appt with doctor

Tuesday - Meet Cooffeebean manager + dinner with dear Andrew :)

Wednesday - Outing to West Coast Park with brother's kindergarten

Thursday - Volunteer at Children's Society

Friday - Free for now

I'm loving life more and more! ^_^

So exalt,

lift up on high

The name of JESUS.

Magnify, come glorify

Christ Jesus the King

2008-06-09T05:26:00.004+08:00

Be going to Malacca with a rather heavy heart.

I'm always screwing things up.

I hope I get some enlightenment from the retreat.

Sigh.

I hope she won't be angry with me for too long.

:(

2008-06-06T23:01:00.003+08:00

Went to the Coffee Bean at Bukit Timah 5th Avenue for interview today morning. Thank goodness Andrew went with me, if not I'll definitely get lost. Heh... Anyway, I got the job! Was listening to the store manager telling me all the rules and regulations until I nearly fell asleep. He was really naggy man! Dots... But I'm happy nevertheless that I am hired! Heex :)

After that, went to Westmall for our lunch. Was supposed to meet Pastor Bee in the late afternoon but she flew me aeroplane last minute! :( :( :( So went to the driving centre with Andrew to renew his PDL. Happy day despite the sudden change in plans. ^_^

I love ANDY LAU more and more! :)

未来的路，我们一起走...

2008-06-03T23:07:00.005+08:00

Went town with Andrew today :)

Chronicles of Narnia is nice! I like it lots! Peter is still as shuai as ever! Prince Caspian is charming too! Hahaha :D

Had our lunch at some restaurant...

Disgusting lor... The huge carrots looked uber scary... =X

Shades from Armani Exchange. We tried those from Chanel and Coach too! But too intimidated to take photos there. Heh...

Can't believe he actually loves ANDY LAU more than I do. LOL! :P

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Yay! Going to Coffeebean for interview this Friday! Hope I'll get the job! :)

Results were out last Friday. Didn't do as well but it was still above my expectation. Haha! Thank God for letting me pass my Statistics paper! I'm going to work hard next semester to pull up my CAP. =)

2008-06-02T08:59:00.003+08:00

Been rather busy lately. Let me recall what I did for the past few days...

Friday

Went to church for Prayer and Power Night. Had briefing about the Retreat as well. I'm so excited about the retreat man! Can't wait to go! Heex ^_^

Saturday

Went Kbox with Karen in the morning. Sang many oldies with her. Hahaha! Super shiok leh! After that, went to Lot 1 to walk around. Played around with the specs at BHG. LOL!

Since it was still early, we wanted to walk to Bukit Gombak from Choa Chu Kang. BUT, after walking for so long, we realised that the road following the MRT track is a restricted area and there's no way we could reach Bukit Gombak. So we had to take a bus back to CCK and take 188 back to church. I think we really looked like fools. Dots... =P

Went to church for the Guests' Night event. Helped to mark the attendance for the guests and had dinner with them. I think it was quite fun lah! Time certainly passes by so quickly. Still remember 4 months ago Karen and I attended the Guests' Night too but we were the guests there! Haha! Peter dropped Pastor Bee and me off at Bukit Gombak MRT after the dinner. Long ride to Orchard but it's great that Pastor Bee was around till Tiong Bahru. If not I'll really be bored stiff. Heex.. Woots... Really eventful Saturday! I like! =]

Sunday

Went to church for service in the morning. Sat down with the visitors in church after lunch and I made a new friend from Penang! Alarize! Such a cool name! :)

God spoke to me during the cell meeting yesterday! Shall not go into the details because it's rather personal but I was really amazed and touched! God has always been there for me no matter how far I drift apart from Him. I'm going to put in extra effort to draw closer to Him!

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Going to the airport later to meet WenXiu! Finally, after 2 odd weeks, she's coming back!!! :)

Till then!

2008-05-30T23:32:00.005+08:00

Dear God,

I really do not understand who I am and what exactly I am here on earth for. Life seems so complex and I can hardly fathom the true philosophy of it.

I know not who I am.

I find myself a mystery.

I am frightened even of myself.

God, I believe in You and I see light at the end of the tunnel. But, I feel like I am stuck in the middle and I do not know the way out.

I want to be happy.

Truly happy.

Can I ?

2008-05-30T11:49:00.002+08:00

Been watching too many movies. Oh my goodness... I calculated the amount I've spent on movies during this holidays and got a shock! =X

1. Dance of Dragon
2. Made of Honor
3. Indiana Jones
4. Iron Man
5. Chronicles of Narnia (tomorrow!)

Suppose I spent $7.50 for each movie, it adds up to $37.50 in total! Wah! If I add up the bubble tea, hotdogs, popcorn and nachos that go with each show, I think I'll faint. LOL!

But I really love to watch movies! For that 2 hours in the theatre, I can immerse myself in the show and forget about my own life temporarily. It's really therapeutic eh? Heex...

I'm so touched. Somebody specially woke up at 8am to wish me luck for my results despite sleeping late last night. Thank you mister, even though you got the timing wrong. Haha! Results will be out only at 3pm lah! But, I really appreciate your thoughtful sms! =]

这是爱嗎 ?

2008-05-27T20:41:00.003+08:00

I think I want to take a break from everything.

Things have been messy, I feel as though I've lost my purpose in life.

I don't know.

I feel so lost.

Hopefully the retreat will help me look at things from a new perspective.

I need God.

Desperately.

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Pastor Bee: Thank you for going with me. You don't know how much your presence means to me.

2008-05-27T09:28:00.003+08:00

Mother says she's planning to bring us to ShangHai this year end because my grandma wants to visit her hometown. Oh my goodness, I don't want to go! I want to go Genting for ANDY LAU's concert in December de! Ahhh! I will never forgive myself if I miss his concert this year! :( :( :(

Coffee Bean called me! Hope they'll grant me an interview! I want to be a barista! Haha... Imagine me making coffee for you! Woot... =P

Somehow, the dreadful feeling is still lingering in me... I hate it.

2008-05-27T00:26:00.003+08:00

XIAN HUI'S BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION! :)

Met up with Xian Hui and Karen at Jurong Point!

Even though 26th May is over now, I still want to wish you a very HAPPY 20th Birthday! Haha! Hope you like the Pooh and meet up soon for shopping! GSS! :)

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Yay, I'm going to watch Narnia this Saturday night with Andrew! Simply can't wait! Hahaha... I totally love the first one few years ago lar. Thanks mister, for booking the tickets for me! Jia you for your exams this Wednesday! :D

2 more weeks, and I can throw my probation plate away! Haha! Time really flies... Can't believe a year has gone by since I sat for the driving test. But I hardly drive nowadays... Wish I have a car :(

2008-05-26T09:18:00.006+08:00

Esther's birthday celebration yesterday! :)

We went to Bugis area for steamboat after cell meeting. Then went off to this dessert shop for desserts! The desserts were really quite nice eh! I think Xian Hui will love it! Haha :D Wyatt and Peter drove us to West Coast park after that.

Really had fun. Shall not write so much, let the photos do the talking! Heh! =P

The birthday girl. Heh!

Last photo of the day....

LOL! I think this looks really scary. Hahaha :P

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ESTHER!

Today is XianHui's birthday too! HAPPY BIRTHDAY, GIRL! See you later at Coffeebean! :D

## Who can I trust, if I can't even trust you? I'm smiling to hide away all the hurts and worries.

2008-05-24T01:06:00.004+08:00

Grace is tired but happy =]

Went to town to meet Andrew in the evening for dinner. LOL! He wanted to go to the Crystal Jade at Taka but the queue was super long. So we ended up at Centrepoint's Ichiban Boshi. Heex ^_^

He ordered a lot... Here are some of what we ate. Heh!

I must say the sushi there is nicer than those from Sakae. Hahaha :P

Went to Cine after dinner because he had a sudden urge to sing. Long time since I last stepped into K Box man. Hahaha :P

*** OH MAN! Andrew said it is confirmed that ANDY LAU is going to Genting this December for his concert! AHHHHH!

I MUST GO! I DEFINITELY MUST GO!

Imagine seeing him live in person! I can already picture myself fainting already! LOL!

Anyway, thanks mister, for the dinner tonight. I really had fun! =]

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Should I call? I'm scared...

2008-05-22T10:33:00.006+08:00

Been thinking a lot for the past few weeks...

I've always wanted to be a psychologist.

I thought I'll be able to achieve it as long as I work hard in my studies.

But sometimes, things just do not work out the way you want them to.

I feel like I'm standing in the middle of a crossroad now.

I've chosen to major in Social Work but, I don't know whether that's the right choice for me.

I don't even think I'm suitable to be a social worker.

I'm never a people person.

I can't socialize or talk to people so freely.

And I'm too emotional for my own good.

I feel sad even when I listen to classical music.

I think I'll be more depressed than my clients after listening to their stories.

How am I going to do well in a career like that?

I feel the fear already.

Should I continue with Social Work or should I just switch to a safer major like Economics?

I am so lost.

2008-05-20T08:53:00.005+08:00

Everytime I go to church, I am reminded of someone from my previous church who has been a very special friend to me. I don't know.... It's so saddening...
Lorna, I'm starting to face the reality that I'll never get to meet you ever again. I miss those times we spent together :( :(

Anyways,

CHURCH FAMILY DAY AT THE ZOO YESTERDAY!

I reached Bukit Batok MRT at 7am when we were supposed to be meeting at 7.40am. Duh! I really cannot gauge the time man. I'm forever so kiasu. LOL!

Anyway, reached the zoo earlier than the rest of the church to help pack the goodie bags. Helped to give out the goodie bags too.

Me and Georgia

My dream! One day I will go Africa!

I don't know what I am doing... LOL

This photo is very random. Heh!

In loving memory of Ah Meng :)

Ah Meng again :D

Can you spot KAREN? Hahaha :P

We won the lucky draw! :)

Tiring day yesterday with all the walking and heat from the sun. =)

2008-05-18T19:36:00.002+08:00

Went to the airport today after service in church! :)

BYE BYE WENXIU! See you on 2nd June! :D

2008-05-17T09:07:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PASTOR BEE! ^_^

This photo is so crazy lar! I think we look like 2 clowns. LOL!

Dinner yesterday with Karen, Esther and Pastor Jadene. We ate at Streets in Raffles City. Wasn't feeling too well because of my super bad flu.

Couldn't sleep yesterday night despite feeling very tired and sick. Thought about many things...

I don't want to get hurt again. Once bitten, twice shy? I've been bitten so many times, why do I keep putting myself at risk of getting hurt all the time?

2008-05-16T10:01:00.002+08:00

One day,

when I've saved enough money,

I will leave.

To a faraway land,

away from all the bad memories here.

2008-05-15T20:23:00.002+08:00

I seriously need to sort out my raging emotions before things go way out of control. Been in a very, very bad mood lately and every little thing seems to irritate me.

I've been feeling so guilty towards a particular person. She has been there for me for the past few months, never giving up on me. And yet, I'm always venting my anger and frustrations on her. She is always tolerating my unreasonable words and behaviour.
To this person, if you happened to read this entry, do know that I'm terribly sorry. Give me a week to settle my mood and I promise you, I'll be back, all ready to grow under your guidance. I will not waste all the time and effort that you've spent on me. Please take care and rest well. Be keeping you in prayer. Happy Birthday in advance!

*** Going to send Wenxiu off on Sunday with Karen. I hope I don't end up crying because it'll be really silly since she's only going to be away for 2 weeks plus. LOL!

2008-05-14T22:50:00.002+08:00

Went shopping at Jurong Point with my sister in the afternoon. And I bumped into Pastor Bee, again! It's always Jurong Point! Haha :P

I wanted to buy a pair of pants from Espirit leh, but the price made me change my mind. Wanted the checkered shirt from FOX, but didn't like it after trying on. In the end, I didn't buy anything. SIAN.

Met up with WenXiu after that and went to Acer with her. Waited so long at the service centre man! I finished watching 3 shows from TV mobile during the wait. Slowpoke =X

Had dinner with Karen and BoonJin at night. Long time since I met BoonJin! Haha! Nice day out today, after being cooped at home for the last 2 days. Argh.

Going Orchard tomorrow!

Shopping list:

- Shoes! I desperately need new shoes! :P
- New clothes!
- Big enough birthday card for 10 people to write on. LOL!
- Pencil Box
- Birthday presents for people

Bank account is seriously depleting! :(

WenXiu is flying to China this Sunday afternoon! Argh... I will really miss you man when you leave. Don't forget me when you're buying souvenirs! HAHAHA! :P

Have a safe trip hor! Hopefully Karen and I can send you off this Sunday :D :D

2008-05-14T09:41:00.002+08:00

Grace is super heart-broken.

News have been reporting daily about Andy Lau and that particular "Zhu-surnamed woman" from Malaysia. Photographs of their twin children have even surfaced.

Hmph!

Evidences are so strong.

I think it's really an open secret that that my *ahem* dream husband is married. LOL!

SIAN to the max! =X

2008-05-13T14:12:00.004+08:00

Yesterday - The Beatles

Yesterday,
all my troubles seemed so far away.
Now it looks as though they're here to stay
Oh, I believe in yesterday.

I had a hard time coming to where I am now. I don't want to go back to the past and relive all the hurts again. After 4 years, I guess I should face the fact that you're never coming back to me again.

Think I better stop listening to oldies. They're making me so emo all over again. =X

## I miss Lorna... Where art thou? :( :(

2008-05-12T10:42:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was truly amazing! :)

Went to church in the morning for service. Had lunch at the usual place before Esther, Georgia, Karen and I went to Tiong Bahru Plaza to walk around. Heex...

Peter came shortly after and drove us to the Indoor Stadium for the Global Day of Prayer thing. My first time there and it was truly powerful. I could really feel the presence of God and it feels really good to see so many Christians united as one to pray for Singapore and the other Nations.

While waiting to go in. Nice sunset :)

The "Green" tickets. Guaranteed us our seats.

Long, long queue...

Why do I look shorter... Aww...

Esther's friend, Anna :)

I still look shorter. Hmph! LOL!

## The event was really an eye-opener man! I will definitely go to the next year's one. 31st May 2009! :)

This is so cute right? Haha... We took the photo secretly because photography is prohibited in the shop. Shhh...

**I've finished CJ7, Ah Long Pte Ltd, and going to watch Kungfu Dunk now. Hahaha! Watching movies for free is really great! :):)

Enjoy ~~

2008-05-10T12:00:00.003+08:00

Always - Air Supply

I can see hills touch the sky

Heaven and earth,

you and I

A world we will always be

Here in the silence we lie

Shadows we cast,

you and I

Speak for eternity

Pressed between pages

Flowers will die

Stories may end as time passes by

You and I

will always be

With every word that I hear

Whenever whispers are near

I can believe in fate

Promises made,

only one

Yesterday fades from the sun

And falls to a new embrace

Years overflow

As rivers run dry

Here in a moment of time passing by

You and I will always be, will always be

Dear you,

You know I still think of you after all these years, don't you?

Time may pass,

wounds may heal,

tears may dry up,

but,

those memories will never fade.

Letters unsent,

words unspoken,

I have so much to tell you.

Will I ever have the chance to talk to you again?

Will I even see you again?

2008-05-09T21:52:00.003+08:00

Long day today! :)

Met Theresa at WestMall in the morning. I've not seen her for a long time! Haha... Don't feel like typing so much today, so I shall post all the photos up. Heex...

We had lunch at Mayim! I miss the Kimchi... But they don't have free-flow of that now :(

Theresa's duck noodle.

Xiao Long Bao. I prefer the ones at Crystal Jade. LOL

The super sweet and spicy kimchi. Heh.

My chicken noodle. Nice!

Went to do manicure too. Been craving for it since eons. Haha...

My newly painted nails :) Notice my 4th finger is crooked eh? All because of a freak accident in primary school. Glad it didn't lose its function even though it's crooked now. Heh...

We bought these sweets from Uncle Tidbits!

Free sample of Jelly. Haha...

Bought a new bag! Happy! :D

After parting with Theresa, I went to church to meet Pastor Bee Ngor.

Me while waiting for Pastor to come. Somehow, I'm starting to like my fringe more and more. Heex =D

Really enjoy talking to Pastor Bee. I've learnt a lot with her guidance ^_^

Can't wait for IronMan with Theresa next week! :)

2008-05-08T15:07:00.002+08:00

Just finished watching the movie online! Thanks to Karen for telling me about the website! It's quite a hilarious movie. Joel David Moore is so funny... LOL!

I'm waiting for Iron Man to be available on the website. Can't wait to watch it! :)

2008-05-08T12:56:00.004+08:00

Didn't meet up with Cynthia after all, cuz I had to go to temple with my maternal grandma. Haha... But meeting her next Thursday for lunch at Holland Village! I miss Holland V leh, long time since I last went. Still remember how Karen and I used to go there after service at Faith Methodist to eat. I miss the laksa! Aww...

It's been a long time since I changed church to Grace Assembly. Haa... I think about 4 months already and I'm really glad God brought me to the church. I think He knows how stagnant I was back at the previous church. LOL! Really love the people there at Grace Assembly! Our Kindness cell group, the pastors, the other brothers and sisters in church... I've met so many new friends in such a short time-span and I'm really enjoying myself. Heex... I certainly hope I'll grow further and deeper in my walk with God! :) Oh yes, I can't wait to start serving at the children's ministry. =D'

Nice church building :):)

Oh yes, I wanted to talk about my day with my grandma but ended up digressing so much. Haha! I went to her house after bringing my brother to school and my uncle drove us to the temple at Boon Lay. Accompanied her to do marketing after she did her worshipping at the temple. Thank God she didn't ask me to take joss sticks. Anyway, went with her to her friend's place and I watched some lok-kok channel 8 dramas while she chit-chatted with her friend. Brought her back home and here I am, back in front of my computer. Meaningful time spent today. Got to set some time to go to Orchard to help my paternal grandma at her stall. Heh!

Ok, I want to go watch Sweeney Todd now. I know I've watched it many times but one can never get tired of Johnny Depp man! Especially when he's singing! So HOT! Hahaha.. And I've finished Andy Lau's Wonderful World Concert le! It's so cool! Wish I was there at the concert! :(

2008-05-06T16:59:00.003+08:00

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YAY! I AM FREE! :):):)

Haha... Left the exam hall 45 mins earlier because I was really bored and I've checked my MCQ answers like don't-know-how-many times. I think 3/4 of the people in the hall left lah. Haha... Anyway, I'm so happy now that holidays are here! :D

Busy week ahead but I'm happy because I'll be doing the things that I like! :)

Tomorrow - Meeting a friend at school in the morning before meeting WenXiu to watch the movie below! I just adore movies lah! Heex... I want to watch Iron Man too! =D

Thursday - Meeting Cynthia for lunch! Long time since I last met her!

Friday - Breakfast with SHIEN! I miss our kopi+toast :) And Pastor Bee in the afternoon! ^.^

Saturday - I think I'll go library to borrow some nice books. Dinner with Pastor Bee :):)

Sunday - Church + Global Day of Prayer at Indoor Stadium!

Exciting week ahead! ~~

And, I am so excited that I've finally made the decision to switch to Social Work. Looking forward to many more Social Work modules next semester! Looking forward for attachment next year too. LOL!

I can really feel God's presence in my life now. I've never been so happy and light-hearted before. I'm really so happy and excited and... I don't know... It's hard to put such feelings in words. Haha... Hope to make use of the holiday to study the Bible seriously and grow in my walk with God. Can't wait for the day when I'll finally take the step of faith to be baptized :)

2008-05-05T12:42:00.004+08:00

Met up with Karen at 7.30am yesterday to have breakfast together. Haha... But I only had one piece of otah and Milk Tea in the end while she had duck rice. LOL! We were too early and reached church at 8.45am. Hahaha... Anyway, service was nice as usual and I enjoyed myself at church! My goal now is to be a Christ - centred Christian! :) Pastor Bee and Esther said I looked happier yesterday. Hahaha... Yesh.. I'm much happier now after sorting out my feelings about all that had happened recently in cell. Prayer really helps :)

Nice otah... But I still prefer the ones from Sheng Siong :)

Argh... My hair looked really stupid! And that irritating pimple is so obvious and ugly. Rarr.... =X

From Peter... Haha... Thanks a lot! But my brother snatched those sweets from me. Hmph!
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YAY! I can barely wait! Tomorrow 3pm is coming very SOON! I will be set free SOON! Hahaha :P I've got many things I want to do! But somehow, when the holidays finally arrive, I will be too lazy to even go out. Hur hur...
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1. Buy a new bag
2. Trim eyebrows
3. Buy new clothes
4. Borrow nice books from library to read
5. Buy tickets for the Barney show at Suntec Convention Centre
6. Find a part-time job
7. Watch CJ7 online
8. Watch Andy Lau Wonderful World Concert DVD
9. Rent lots of DVD to watch
10. Fishing, pool, bowling.... Karen! Can't wait :)
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And the list goes on... Hahaha =P
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And so I didn't manage to find my Forensic Psychiatry notes. Sigh! Shall focus on Schizophrenia and Depression instead. Dots...
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The weather is super hot and humid! Been sweating like hell for the past week. Eek! Think I better go bathe now and try to do some final revision for my exam in the evening. Hell man! 5-7pm paper! Such "great" timing... Tsk tsk... =X
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Till then ~~

2008-05-02T19:22:00.004+08:00

OH MY GOODNESS! I want to cry :( :( :(

I think I'll fail the Statistics paper that I sat for earlier on. Had a terrible headache while doing the paper and I had to endure it throughout because I didn't have any panadol. I "tikam-ed" almost all the 16 MCQs because I really couldn't concentrate anymore. Thank goodness I did the long essay questions first before the headache worsened.

Didn't feel good already yesterday night. Was studying when suddenly I felt so giddy. It's like the whole room is spinning around me. Gave me a shock because I've never felt like that before. What is happening to me? Oh my goodness... I hope things will be fine for the remaining 2 papers next week.

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Anyway, post a photo to make me feel better. Hehe :P

The awards ceremony will be shown on Channel U this Sunday 8.30pm! AHH! I want to watch even though the results were out like so long ago. Haha!

I seriously got to stop gushing over him man. Haha... But I can't help it. LOL!

ANDY LAU! <3

Ok lar, I'm going bonkers ^.^

I'm craving for Green Apple Milk Tea! Used to drink it everytime I go Jurong Point but it's been ages since I last stepped there. Argh!

2008-05-01T14:32:00.002+08:00

BORED! :P

My faithful companion over the last few nights :) But I prefer the original one though. Heh!

Now I know why I always gain weight during exam period. =/

Studying out at Macs till the wee hours... Hahaha :P

One more day, and I'll be freed from this torturous module! Argh!

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Was browsing through the photos in my phone and I came across this particular photo that brought back tremendous pleasant memories into my mind...

PEILING! I really miss this girl a lot! I remember all the nights I spent at her house teaching her Maths and English. I remember bringing Harry and her over to Mac and Sheng Siong for snacks. I wonder how she is now...

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Received a sms in the afternoon...

Someone : We can go Little India to eat Indian food. Like that idea?

I can't believe I actually agreed! =X

God certainly has a funny way of doing things. Maybe I'll end up falling in love with Little India and feel a sense of belonging there like KAREN. I can't believe she actually feels at home there... Hahaha... =P

Somehow, I find this quote very relevant... Hur hur :)

"One often finds his destiny on the road he took to avoid it. " - Jean De La Fountaine

P.S: I miss my long fringe! Why on earth did I allow my aunty to cut it off when she came over to my house to help my brother trim his hair! Oh my goodness! I think I look like a freak now with my extremely short fringe!
:( :( :(

Statistics paper tomorrow! Jia You! :) 6th of May!

2008-04-29T13:09:00.004+08:00

Was up till 3am in the morning because I COULDN'T FIND MY FORENSIC PSYCHIATRY LECTURE NOTES AND READINGS!!! Oh my goodness! Was frantically finding my whole room but I still couldn't find it! Anyway, in the midst of finding the notes, I got bored and took some photos of my room. HAHA!
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Yay, I love my room colour! Yello! So therapeutic and bright eh? Heex...

My messy study table. =X

I need another bookshelf! LOL! No place to fit all my books and files sia...

Even more messy. =/

I realised I've got lots of Christian books in my shelf. Haha... People always give me books on my birthday but I've got no time to read them! Heh... Excuses only lar... =P

My beloved Archie comics. I will never get tired of them. Heex...

Nithya and I were trying to figure out what out lecturer wrote on our Islam paper but gave up after trying so hard. They don't even look like words. Worst than a doctor's handwriting. LOL! And yes, we got a B+. Not up to our expectations but at least we tried our best. Heex :):)

Was reading a booklet that Esther lent me which talked about the baptism of the Holy Spirit yesterday night. And I tried praying and asking God for the gift of tongues. But, cannot leh. :( :( Maybe the time's not ripe yet.

OKOK. I got to go find my notes again. I hope I can find them because it's my favourite topic and I want to focus on it for the Mental Health exam next Monday. ARGH!

2008-04-27T16:23:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, being too sentimental is no good.

I'd be lying if I say I'm not at all affected by all that has happened.

The happy memories are short-lived,

and so is our friendship.

Pastor is right,

things will hurt even more if I drag it longer.

I'm just glad everything is back on track,

and we're all moving on.

Meanwhile,

please bear with me for the time being.

I'm still nursing my wounded heart.

2008-04-26T10:14:00.004+08:00

I had to blog about this. It's just so .... unexpected, I should say. =X

I didn't know things would turn out to be so serious. I didn't know how much mess I've created. I didn't know the many implications that could have happened. I just wasn't that far-sighted. Sigh! Because of me, things turned out this way. I feel so guilty. Oh my goodness. I am so sad :(

## I guess what's done is done already. I shall stop crying over spilt milk. I guess God has a reason for everything.

Anyway, I'm happy. Pastor Bee said I can go East Timor with her after I graduate! Haha... I'm so excited lah!

But... 2-3 more years before I can go. I shall wait patiently... Heex...

Was telling her about my dream to go Africa too and she said she can help me fulfill it if I'm really serious. Hahaha. This is just so unbelievable.

Africa... One day I'll go... =)

Back to my books :)

2008-04-25T09:35:00.003+08:00

Will be on hiatus until after 6th May!

To everyone who's facing exams, jia you jia you! :)

2008-04-24T16:52:00.003+08:00

Am really bored stiff from all the mugging. Sigh! Why on earth did I choose to take Islam? I feel so overwhelmed with all the Malay and Arabic terms in my readings. Argh =X

Was clearing the clutter in my room and I came across a letter that you wrote to me a year ago. Sigh... Brought back many happy memories.

Because of you,
I got to know what happiness was like.
Yet,
because of you,
I got to know what heart-broken meant.

I sincerely hope you're doing fine now. No matter where you may be, I'll be keeping you in my prayer for as long as I live.

我累了...

2008-04-24T11:47:00.003+08:00

My all-time favourite song! :)

Air Supply - Goodbye

I can see the pain living in your eyes
And I know how hard you try
You deserve to have much more

I can feel your heart
and I sympathize
And I'll never criticize
All you've ever meant to my life

I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
i don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong

You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but goodbye

You deserve the chance at the kind of love
I'm not sure i'm worthy of
Losing you is painful to me

I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
i don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong

You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but goodbye

Oh my goodness... The more I listen, the more I want to go to their concert! =X It's like a one-in-a-lifetime thing man! I WANT TO GO! Maybe I'll go make friends with some aunties and psycho them to go with me. Heh. :P

## HuiMin, you're losing out a lot by not knowing who Air Supply is! Hahaha... I'll make sure I let you listen to their songs when I see you around next time! :P

2008-04-23T11:31:00.002+08:00

Sick today :(

Woke up with a terrible headache and stomachache. Plus fever and vomit to worsen how I feel. Oh my goodness... I hope I get well SOON so that I have the energy to study. First paper in 2 DAYS TIME! Oh man... This is the first time I feel so unprepared for such a major exams. I hope I won't do too badly this semester. Haiz...

I don't know whether I'm really doing the right thing. I respect her a lot and that's why I listened to her. But, am I really doing the right thing? We really had fun together. It'd be my regret if our friendship is broken because of this episode. Sigh!

2008-04-23T01:36:00.002+08:00

Can't sleep. =X

Woots. One of my uncles is graduating next Sunday with a Masters in Divinity. Soon I'll have a pastor-uncle... Heex... Sounds cool! I really respect him man, because he was so faithful in God's calling and didn't mind resigning from teaching few years back to study full-time in Bible College. A big risk, especially when he has 3 children and he's the sole breadwinner of the family. I certainly look up to him a lot. A pity I can't be there for the graduation ceremony because of exams. Sian... =X

Went to a wake just now and my aunty mentioned that I seemed to have lost weight! Hahaha... I'm so happy. Hopefully it's not just a statement to make me over the moon. LOL! I must continue my daily walking. Heh...

Nothing much to blog about lah. Till then! :)

2008-04-19T12:39:00.004+08:00

The world's most attractive man... Haha :P

Sigh... I'm so obsessed with my beloved *husband*. Hahaha :P Just finished watching his concert DVD that I bought the other day with Esther. Oh man... I must psycho Wyatt to work with him as soon as possible. I am desperate! =D

Air Supply is coming to Singapore for concert on 21st June! AHHHH! I want to go! But so paiseh lah... I think everyone is going to call me "aunty" if I go. Sian... haha... =P

Better return to my books now. I can't wait for 6th May! Holiday! :)

2008-04-17T14:21:00.010+08:00

Grace is very happy.

She has so many things to look forward to after her exams.

1. Retreat to Malaysia with Karen!

2. Coffee Bean with XianHui! I miss you, girl! :)

3. Batam with cell group!

4. Fishing with Karen!

5. Andy Lau Wonderful World Concert DVD to watch! <3

6. Lunch with Cynthia!

7. Library books to read!

And Pastor Bee is bringing Grace out!

She can't believe it.

God has been so good to her despite her sinful past.

Grace feels so afraid because she is so happy. Irony, irony...

Anyway, in the meantime,

grace must study.
grace must study.
grace must study.
grace must study.
grace must study.
grace must study.
grace must study.
grace must study.
grace must study.
grace must study.
grace must study.
grace must study.
grace must study.

Grace truly wants to be happy! =)

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I miss Lorna so much :( :( :( :(

2008-04-14T22:56:00.002+08:00

I just realised how much my little brother has grown. No longer can I call him 'baby' now. Heh... =P

2 years ago....

Huge difference hor? Hahaha...

It's my prayer that he will grow up to be a man who loves God (:

2008-04-12T19:05:00.004+08:00

Something unforeseen happened. Just as I was worrying about what is going to happen in the near future, God brought this Bible verse into my mind.

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. - Matthew 6:34

God is really amazing! He is indeed responding and comforting me through His Word. With Him, I fear no konger! =)

The Lord is close to all who call on Him, yes, to all who call on Him sincerely. - Psalm 145:18

2008-04-12T02:30:00.002+08:00

Cell Group outing!

Met Esther after school at National Library. We went to Bras Basah and browsed through so many books. Hmm.. Saw many interesting titles. Shall go find them again after exams! After that, we walked to Raffles City and sat at this cool place to chit chat. I ordered a glass of Iced Lemon Tea and it cost me $6! Oh my goodness... It wasn't even nice at all! :(

Walked together to Marina Square to meet Wyatt, Karen and Georgia. We went to this place opposite Marina Square to have dinner! Nice food! But there were 3 idiotic cats loitering around the vicinity. Totally spoiled my appetite. Sian... Thank goodness I have a strong heart. ^.^

Fooooooooood.... Yummy! :)

We bought tickets to sit for the boat ride at the river. My first time! Heex... Saw the beautiful night scenes of Singapore! It was really cooling and relaxing!

Some of the clearer sceneries that I shot. Heh...

The ticket! :D

Out of compassion, I've decided not to post up those hilarious photos that I took of Karen. Hahaha :P Here are some decent ones... :)

Me, Karen and Georgia :)

Uncle Wyatt! My only hope to meet Andy Lau! Heex...

Me and Esther! :)

Really had a fun time with them! I really thank God for bringing these people into my life. Of cuz, not leaving out those who couldn't turn up! HuiMin! I didn't forget you! hahaha... =P Plus Peter and Zane! And Pastor Bee Ngor too! For the first time in my life, I actually love going for cell group outings and church. God has really answered my prayer. =)

I'm so happy! Our group had an A for our Mental Health and Illness project! We had a tough time but I'm glad everything turned out to be good. =)

Yay! If everything goes well, Karen and I are going for the 5-day Grace Retreat at Malaysia! Excited! 5 Star Hotel! :)

Meanwhile, got to start mugging real hard! Exams coming in about 15 days! Oh my goodness! =X

2008-04-11T06:32:00.003+08:00

I woke up at 5am today and suddenly felt the urge to go to my Bible. And I saw this verse:

"Who is the liar? It is the man who denies that Jesus is the Christ. Such a man is the antichrist - he denies the Father and the Son."

- 1 John 2:22

God has really answered my doubts! Been feeling very confused and sort of mixed up after doing the Islam module in school. Came across a lot of literature and journals that do not support what the Bible says. I think this verse really explains everything! Heh :)

Then, I came across another verse:

"I write to you, dear children, because your sins have been forgiven on account of his name. "

- 1 John 1:12

I've got nothing more to add on to this. Today morning, after so long, I see light in my life. Finally....

Special thanks to a particular Pastor (: I want to walk away from my past. I really do. I know God will help me. =)

"God is light: in Him there is no darkness at all. "

2008-04-10T17:22:00.001+08:00

I'm really frightened to think of the future. Can I really walk out of my past? Can I be freed?

Grace ol' Grace... Can't you ever do anything right?

:( :( :(

2008-04-09T15:18:00.000+08:00

Was talking to Mr Low just now in the morning at school and I ended up having lots of questions after that. Haiz... Will I ever understand what exactly I'm made for? What is my purpose of living on this world? What has God created me for?

Lies. Deception. Contradictions. Struggles. Sorrows. Oppression. Unfairness.

Sigh...

Life must be more than all these.

Dear God,
will I ever understand You?
Maybe I will never,
because You are God...

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Am chatting with one of my tuition kids now. Kids nowadays really grow up too quickly. They don't realise how precious the innocence of childhood is. Sigh... I'd give anything to go back to the past :(

2008-04-07T07:55:00.002+08:00

Ohmygoodness.

I want to buy it!

BUT, looking at how old-looking my wallet is now, I think I better not buy. Typical lazy people like me who do not bother to maintain the wallet will only ruin the label eh.

Sian...

2008-04-05T22:29:00.002+08:00

What A Wonderful World

I see trees of green,
red roses too
I see them bloom,
for me and you
And I think to myself,
what a wonderful world

I see skies of blue,
and clouds of white
The bright blessed day,
dark sacred night
And I think to myself,
what a wonderful world

The colors of the rainbow,
so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces,
of people going byI see friends shaking hands,
sayin' "how do you do?"
They're really sayin' "I love you"
I hear babies cryin',
I watch them grow
They'll learn much more,
than I'll ever know
And I think to myself,
what a wonderful world

Yes I think to myself,
what a wonderful world
Oh yeah

Was reading someone's blog and she had this song. I remember how much my dad loved this song.
Sigh!

*Is it really a wonderful world out there?