__ Friday, March 06, 2009 ;

A little girl with her daddy.

Every morning, her daddy would bring her to the kindergarten.

On the way there, they would pass by a playground.

Without fail, the little girl would pester her daddy to push her on the swing.

Up in the air, over the trees, towering people and vehicles...

She would feel happy.

A sense of security,

knowing that her daddy will be there for her

no matter how high or low she goes.

Years passed, the swing is gone.

So is her daddy.

But she holds on to the belief,

that one day, she and her daddy will reunite.

And they will be playing on the swing like before.

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__ Wednesday, March 04, 2009 ;

It has been a long, long time since I last blogged.

It seems like I've lost the drive and interest in blogging.

I don't know when my next post will be.

Maybe tomorrow, maybe few months later, or maybe there will never be one.

But one thing I have to say for sure,

I am currently leading a happy life.

I guess that's what matters most.

Till then.

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__ Friday, January 02, 2009 ;

I spent the last moments of 2008 with dear and his family at a Countdown Party in a club house. It was fun except for the Indian dinner which was provided. I'm sure Karen would love it if she was there. LOL!

2008 has been a year filled with excitement and happening events. Heex.

In May 2008, I met dear for the very first time. It has been, and will always be, an exciting and amazing journey with him. Then, I got to know his group of friends who are ever so humorous and nice.

In June, I went for a church retreat to Malacca with Karen and some other people. It was really refreshing and I really enjoyed myself in Malacca.

In August, I started my second year in school and I got to know many nice friends in my social work classes. They were the ones who made lectures fun and enjoyable.

In December, my dream came true! Andy Lau Wonderful World Concert was truly a blast and I have never been so excited and touched at a concert before. Hehe... And going to the concert with dear simply made the night even more memorable.

I hope 2009 would be another memorable year for me. I'm sure it would be. :)

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__ Monday, December 01, 2008 ;

December is here! So many things to look forward to! :))

1. ANDY LAU WONDERFUL WORLD CONCERT! ^^
2. Seoul Garden with Dear
3. Karen's birthday celebration
4. Shopping
5. Straighten my hair
6. Movies
7. Bring my brother out to play

I hope to spend as much quality time with dear as possible. Hee... I guess it'll be our last holiday cuz he'll be working full-time next year after he graduates. :)

My last paper on Wednesday! =]

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__ Saturday, November 29, 2008 ;

Went to attend a wake just now.

And it got me thinking about life, death, spirituality, religion...

I guess as we grow older, we see more of deaths and sicknesses.

Although I do not support euthanasia,

I have often wondered whether my stand will change when it comes to me being the one plagued with the illness.

I do hope to die with dignity and painless-ness.

Death shouldn't be a scary thing isn't it?

But I'm scared.

Perhaps it's because I have been out in the secular world for too long.

Religion is a lifelong commitment.

I want to walk down the future with God's comforting embrace.

I know He is always there.

It's time for me to start attending church again.

** Sorry for the morbid entry. Wow... I saw my lecturer being featured on The Straits TImes today for her work with HIV patients at the CDC in TTSH. She's really a great Medical Social Worker! Someday I hope to be like her.

Going back to my books now. Till then.

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__ Friday, November 28, 2008 ;

Will be having my placement from 11th May to 17th July 2009. There goes my holidays. Sigh! Hopefully it will be a meaningful and enriching experience for me. I guess I will be able to know whether social work is really the career that I want only after going through the placement. But then again, even if I get to know that social work is not for me, it will be too late to make any amendments. =X

Somehow, I still miss Psychology.

Exams will be ending next Wednesday and it will be holidays! Will have to start finding out what modules to take for next Semester. I feel like taking another Singapore Studies Module. LOL!

ANDY'S CONCERT IN 2 WEEKS' TIME! :))

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__ Monday, November 24, 2008 ;

Ahh! I want to watch! But the tickets are so expensive. Sigh!

:(

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__ Saturday, November 22, 2008 ;

Happy 6th month :)

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__ Sunday, November 16, 2008 ;

We listen to songs everyday.

Some tunes ring in our ears for hours, repeating themselves almost endlessly.

Some tunes become lost to the external environment.

At every phase of my life,

there will be some songs which are significant in that period.

When different familiar tunes are played,

memories of different phases of my life will appear.

Happy memories, sad memories...

Feelings of nostalgia accompanying those memories.

In the soon future to come,

more tunes will be included into my memory bank,

adding more colours and richness into my life.

Today,

what is the song playing in your heart?

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Exams are coming! I'm worried and stressed! Really do hope I manage to get decent grades this semester. :(

So many movies that I want to watch! But I guess I have to wait patiently till after my exams.

1. BODY OF LIES!
2. Four Christmases
3. City of Ember
4. Quarantine
5. Bolt

I want exams to be over!

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__ Sunday, November 09, 2008 ;

It's been nearly two years since you are gone. The grief has gradually faded away as time passes. Tears no longer appear that much whenever I speak of you. And I've finally managed to tell myself that you are never ever coming back again.

Sometimes it scares me, because I can hardly recall how you look like without looking at your photos. I want to let go and move on, but I'm afraid of losing memories of you in the process.

But, don't worry about me. Because after all these years, I've grown stronger.

I know you're watching over me somewhere up there with God and His angels. And I'm consoled by this fact.

And I'm patiently waiting for the day we meet again.

I wish you were here to share my joy and happiness with me now that I've found someone whom I really love.

I miss you, Daddy. I honestly do.

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__ Monday, October 20, 2008 ;

It has been ages since I last blogged seriously.

Guess I have been too caught up with my life to spend some time thinking and reflecting...

Today I think back about how we first met.

Just a simple message on Friendster from you, a few minutes of conversation on MSN...

And our paths crossed.

I still remember the very first time I saw you in person.

I didn't know that a new chapter of my life will begin right from that very day.

You brought wonderful memories into my life.

Happy moments which have been imprinted so deeply into my mind.

My world is colourful, because you are in it.

Thank you for everything that you have done.

From the very first time you held my hands, I knew my life is going to change.

It has indeed changed.

I don't know what the future has in store for me but, I know that I want you to be in my future.

I want to walk the journey of life with you.

And only you.

I love you.

Happy 5th month in advance dear.

:)

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__ Wednesday, October 15, 2008 ;

I have been feeling so blessed and happy for the past few months.

I hope we last forever.

:)

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__ Saturday, September 27, 2008 ;

Happy Birthday Andy! :):)

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__ Tuesday, September 23, 2008 ;

Tiring day today!

Went to school for project meeting. Had lunch with Weihao and Eugene at Engine Mac while waiting for the rest to come. We went to the Family Room for our discussion and it was quite fun exploring how SecondLife works. The meeting ended really late at 6pm... Had to rush down to Cathay for another project meeting which was supposed to start at 7pm. I shouldn't have rushed all the way there man, because I was the earliest one to reach in the end. Dots.. The rest came like half an hour later. Haha... Next time I'm going to take my own sweet time! Lol! Anyway, the meeting ended at around 9.30pm and I went back home half-dead. Sian...

Shall not talk about depressing school matters... Haha... Went to watch Mama Mia yesterday and I really love it! Oh man! Meryl Streep is great as usual! Haha... But Pierce Brosnan looked weird singing and dancing in the movie. LOL! I'm going to watch it again! Really nice! Hehe :D

Really fabulous show! :))

Got to go sleep now... KK and IMH visit tomorrow! Sounds exciting... Heh... That's why I love Social Work! So many field trips! :D

I miss dear :(

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__ Thursday, September 18, 2008 ;

Have been feeling very stressed lately. My readings and tutorials are piling up and projects are driving me crazy. Worst still, I have 2 term papers to write! It's mid term break next week but my weekdays are all filled up with school matters. :(

Monday
My only free day, have to mug for SW2103 Mid-term exam!

Tuesday
- SW2105 project meeting 1pm in school
- Medical Social Work project meeting 7pm, Cathay Starbucks

Wednesday
- KK Hospital visit 9.30am
- IMH visit 2.30pm

Thursday
- SW2105 Skills lab 2.30pm-9pm

Friday
- SW2105 Skills lab 9.30am-6pm

This semester is really tough... :( :(

Anyway, our 4th month is coming next Monday! But dear will be in camp because of his reservist. Can't wait for him to book out next Friday and eat steamboat together! :) :)

Dear, when the going gets tough, it's you who gives me the strength to carry on. Because of you, I am no longer lonely. Thank you for all that you've done. Saying I love you seems to be a little too insufficient to express how I feel for you. Our future will be beautiful, this I believe. :)

谢谢你的爱 <3

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__ Sunday, September 14, 2008 ;

I drove today! From my house to the restaurant near my house. Hehe... But was so embarrassed because I forgot how to park the car and my uncle had to help me do the parking instead. Oops... Hahaha =P

Have been watching <溏心風暴之家好月圓> at dear's house. It's really exciting even though some of the parts can be quite tiring to watch because they're always screaming and shouting. Have to wait till dear comes back from reservist before I can watch again. Heex :)

I'm terribly nervous about this Wednesday's mid term because it's a history exam. I'm poor at remembering dates! 2 more days to chiong for it... Jia You! Hehe :)

Will be pinning for him the next 5 days... Sigh! Saturday, please come quickly... :(

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__ Tuesday, September 09, 2008 ;

Played basketball with dear, Karen, Da Ge, Kenneth and some of their friends last Sunday at Toh Guan. Quite fun and exciting... But I ended up with muscle aches all over. LOL! Karen left earlier and I stayed back to watch them play. Then went to IMM for dinner at Xing Wang. Walked all the way from IMM to Clementi with dear. Hee... I love walking. Badminton next time! :)

Had our first project meeting for SW2105 yesterday. We're going to use Second Life to do our project. I didn't even know what's Second Life until yesterday leh. I seriously hate using IT to work. =X

Another 1 and a half year, and I am graduating. I guess I'm probably not opting for Honors year because I seriously doubt my ability to get at least a Second Upper Class. So, I'm not going to risk wasting one whole year. Heh... Am I cowardy? Oops :P
Anyway, I'm rather excited about going to work. It sounds intimidating but I'm sure I'll learn a lot being a social worker. And I really do hope to go on a holiday to somewhere far when I graduate. It's been like 8 years since I last sat on a plane. Dots... Have to start saving now! LOL!

Nation-Building Mid term test 1 next Wednesday 6-8pm! OMG! I'm more or less halfway there for my revision but I'm still scared. I seriously want to do well for this semester. Have to mug hard every night till next Wed. Heex :)

Dear's going for reservist next week. Sigh... Will miss him terribly :(

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__ Sunday, August 31, 2008 ;

Been happy the past few days because I've spent lots of time with dear at his house. Intended to study with him but I ended up watching tv or sleeping sometimes. Heh... Was watching 杨贵妃 yesterday with his family and it's nice, even though I don't really like period dramas. Heex =D

I am really lagging behind in my revision. Oh no! Am glad that I completed one chapter of the Nation-building module yesterday night. The readings are really horrible although they're quite entertaining because of the political issues. LOL!

Tons of revision to do:

1. Finish readings for Nation Building Lecture 3
2. Finish readings for Medical Social Work Lectures 1-3
3. Prepare Medical Social Work tutorial
4. Watch [I Not Stupid] for Generalist Social Work tutorial

There're a lot more man! But I know myself lar, can't possibly finish so much in a week so I'm aiming to complete all these which are more urgent. Heh...

Stressed... Am certainly looking forward for the Mid-term break to recharge and catch up! :((

Anyway, some happy things to look forward to:

1. Cut hair and treatment with dear
2. Change new specs (the optician said my eyesight has increased by 100 degrees! Will I go blind if I hit 1000? =X)
3. Hospital visit to KK!
4. Malacca/Genting with dear in Dec!

And most exciting of all.....

ANDY's Concert! :D :D :D :D

P.S: Life is fragile. Sigh!

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__ Thursday, August 28, 2008 ;

DATE
12 Dec 2008 Fri, 8:00PM

DURATION
Approx. 2 hrs

VENUE
Singapore Indoor Stadium

TICKET PRICE (Exclude Booking Fee)
Standard - S$198, S$178, S$158, S$118

LATEST NEWS
Internet Booking starts on 28 Aug 2008, 9am.
Other Sales channel start on 28 Aug 2008, 10am.

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Dear has booked the premium tickets for both of us! I'm so happy! Hehehe! My dream is coming true very soon! Can't wait to go Malacca with him this Dec too!

Got to work hard in the meantime so I can play and enjoy my Dec holidays to the max! =D

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__ Wednesday, August 27, 2008 ;

Tutorials have started this week. I had my first tutorial yesterday and it was rather interesting. We learnt about the various emotions and underlying emotions. Cool! Hehe... Dear came to campus to accompany me for my 2-hour break. So happy and touched! :)

Went to his house after my lecture and slacked around. Had dinner at his aunt's house at Pasir Panjang. Baby Dylan is really cute! I want to play with him but apparently, he is scared of me. Haha! After dinner, dear, his mum and I went to Clementi to have Tang Yuan. Love the yam paste! :D Accompanied his mum to do grocery shopping before going home.

A simple day well-spent. :)

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